Never Say Never

TG and I went to the Fray concert last nite at Verizon Amphitheather and they played all the songs we wanted to hear and were so good!! Our tickets were only $10 bucks because some friends and I got future show tickets when I attended the Coldplay concert last week. It was an awesome balmy night in Irvine Meadows--despite my crazy commute into OC. Ah I have way too much faith in So Cal traffic. 2.5 hours. in the car. But worth it? Of course. <3


This is me about to be drunk...and yes there's like 1/3 left...cheap.effin.date. but you know you love it.

There's some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

You can never say never
Why we don't know when
Time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Picture you're the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
Steady your hand

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together
Pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

a theory

devotion taught me everything I know.

For one day...

...I want to be Cupid. it would be effin madness if I was.

I think one of the best feelings in the world, if not the best feeling in the world, is when you have the power, capacity, ability to make someELSE happy.

knowing their expectations and surpassing them.

Its definitely one thing to share in happiness but such another to give it without intentions other than the sole lust that the opportunity presents itself and that...it would be perfect.

I want to be Cupid for a day. And watch the beautiful crescendo of it all.

amazing weekend but as usual, a great weekend for me always marks something lost. I lost my camera and half of a hershey's bar. yea, the only two things I don't have. explanation--insert yourself here please...


OC FAIR(fried white castle cheeseburger, bacon wrapped jalapeno poppers, pan fried chicken, roasted corn, red candy apples)...tall swings and banana peel monkeys playing hard to get!! GIMME!! oh and that huge horse is really a cute ass pony!! I WANT YOU!!

sleeping in/poolside tan and catchup girl talks/pampering/Barney'sBeanery/ClubMenage/surprise visit/not sleeping/dim sum brunch/Manhattan Beach/cooking dinner/night in with movies/turning in early/early morn warm fuzzies/successful day at work.

...for the price of my camera running away, I'd say I got the better end of the deal. "Camera, I would like to let you know--where ever you are, you were missing/will miss out."

Gunmen

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love. oh so true.
so i got to talking to one of my friends about flirting. especially guys flirting. and our enlightened analogy was that guys who flirt a lot but never date are like manic gunmen running around with a loaded gun. they give notice, you clearly know who and what they are and to run at full speed away from them. danger is near. stay at your own risk but youre in full awareness of what staying entails. never get attached and never buy into whatever they display/say to you. usually no one gets hurt.

then theres the other breed..slow and steady, calm and collected, hand on the trigger and eyes on the target, cool as can be. just one target...you....reassuringly whispering that the moment is as it should be and not to worry, breathe easy. then SNIPED. you're hit and hurt. heart stopped and final breath drawn. and as always, it came at a moment you least expected.

to appear sad

with the same eye

fixed to rest on you
aim free and so untrue

everyone's so intimately rearranged
everyone can focus clearly with such shine

lost and loaded
straight through your gaze

take me back to the start

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Oh tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I want to go back to the start

today

And how my thoughts they let me down...

And how my dreams they let me down.

TAO BEACH (day 2)

Because water + music + hotness........ couldn't be anything less!!!

...summer at its best

Revolution @ Mirage (night 1)

8 hr work day+3 hour vegas drive+ alcohol=awesomeness and awesomeness

and that's sooo not me being drunk and cold and using napkins as blankets..who doesss THAT??!!

Adorn: Arden B corset top + nine star skinnies + F21 brown buckles gladiator heels

the mark of a vegas success?

haha from the birthday girl...a day after we get back via email:

HOLA LADIES!!!!!!!!!

ok, so some of the ladies and i were talking and we decided there should be a VEGAS PART DEUX!!!!!!!!! whos down???????? Here are the dates, maybe lets do thurs-sun this time?? or fri-sun? let me kno which u prefer

heheehe so if you could please respond ur availabilities, id greatly appreciate it!!!!!!!!!
thurs-sun dates:

1. Jul 23-Jul 26
2. Jul 30- Aug 2
3. Aug 6-9
4. Aug 13-16

lol...ahhh

updated:

Dates	Alex	Amy	Diana	Enny	Hai	Juel	Val
Jul 24-Jul 26	Y		Y		Y
Jul 31-Aug 2	Y	Y		Y		Y	Y
Aug 7-Aug 9	Y			Y	Y	Y
Aug 14-Aug 16	Y		Y	Y	Y	Y	Y

hahahahahaha...

For me, Vegas is a vacation from being overinhibited, in the highly overinhabited yet uninhabitable city of complete uninhibition.

waiting for laundry to be done so I can finish packing for vegas. oh vegas. always different with who you go with. but i think im set for a mellow trip. yea..in need of mellow vegas trip. hah.

I have a hankering to go thrifting soon. So tired of regular shopping (although I've definitely have cut down from that too). Will have to round up some girls for a trip around town for some fab finds soon.


Adorn: thrifted vintage blazer, red strapless top, highwaisted stovepipe pants from Japan and a gold/black leather calvin klein belt

I have this damn pinched nerve in my neck. TG tried to rub it out but I think it just gets bad tenfold when I'm at my awkward ass desk and chair and theyre not level with each other. blah.

Mid-summer...the countdown begins. I.cannot.wait.for.school.to.start. I had dinner with JP tonight because I was super craving some good carne asada drizzled with lime and some good chips. I headed to culver city after work and lucky me, or rather typical of la...there has to be a accident right where the ten and 405 meet. Well I work off the 405 and I need to get on the ten. hmm. an hour of my life spent hot, and listening to radio hits that I've already heard in my hour commute from the morning. JP and his update of girls, life and being so successful at law school and work. While I cant wait for school to start because well I go on coast mode-- JP is loving work bc well, he doesnt ever coast during school. hmmm and yet I have not learned a thing or two from him. love our catchups. grounded and aspiring at the same time.

my tiredness hit me like a two ton brick at 2-3 pm today. waiting for tg, nap at 10 pm is not a nap-- it just confused my body. and being petted is so intoxicating. then i decide its a smart idea to want animal style fries at midnight. throw in a vanilla shake. oh and deciding that I must find my harry potter dvd so we can get tg to brush up on his HP-ness--yea pretty sure why I enlisted the use of caffeine at 3 pm just as the day was suppose to wind down.

i wonder why they havent figured a way to make steering wheels less hot on sunny days. i mean they freaking can invent anything but not that???

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! next weeeeeeeeekkkkk!!!!

Eyes all sticky like honey on bees!!

what a freaking crazy few weeks. between birthdays (Val's and Stephen's and Alex's this weekend) and EDC and losing all my possessions that allows me to function-- work and being sick and this past July 4th weekend-- Summer has been running full blast and a half!! There's way too many pictures to post and my patience will be way too tested if I truly try for a full on photoblog update. Hmm...I'll figure something out.

Joyeux Anniversaire, Valerie!! 
Cafe Beaujolais& Opera/Crimson
A beautiful evening and birthday celebration for one of my hottest and most awesome girlfriends!! She got majorly serenaded at the restaurant by a bunch of French men-- so cute and so fab!!

 

  

CampBeachBonFire-- Happy Birthday theStephen!!

     @CoronaDelMar

When Love Takes Over
Needless to say, EDC was awesome. 90,000+ people, a night that literally lasted from sunset to sunrise. I dont remember the last time I stayed up the whole night :) So well worth it. Amazing. So many perfect moments of pure love for music and my friends.

July 4th-- sans fireworks so naturally we made our own...just kidding!! 
I didnt take much pictures until the day after the 4th but our muse and model of the day epitomized our day soaking in sunny Orange County-- sleeping in on Sunday, outdoor lunches, baby pictures :) flag football, tanning and lots of Emi!!... don't kidnap her...I'll get in trouble.

 

 

Summer is so so great. 

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow
Blue birds fly
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Dreams really do come true ooh ooooh
Someday I'll wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney tops thats where you'll find me oh
Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly
And the dream that you dare to,why, oh why can't I? 

Vegas bound this weekend...Happy birthday Wifey! 

A typical day at the Van residence with me and my Ms.

<3 my Wednesdays *wink