Tuesday, December 22, 2009

I must believe my own favorite story...that of the Velveteen Rabbit


Do not seek the because - in love there is no because, no reason, no explanation, no solutions.
— Anais Nin

Maybe love won’t let you down, all of your failures are training ground.
— Rilo Kiley, The Absence of God

Each lover that doesn’t work gives you a new set of eyes and another piece of baggage to carry around with you. Sometimes though, some of the baggage gets taken by someone who loves you enough for the both of you.
— Anaïs Escobar, Love Notebook #6

The only way of knowing a person is to love them without hope.
— Walter Benjamin

Your task is not to seek for love but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
— Rumi

It’s there, I know it is, because when I look at you, I can feel it. And-and I look at you, and I… and I’m home. Please… I don’t want that to go away.
— Finding Nemo

And...
So, I love you because the entire universe conspired to help me find you.
— Paulo Coelho

I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be.
— Douglas Adams

Monday, December 21, 2009

my winter night

you can seem to have it all or rather, be deemed to have it all by the unobservant eye. pretty face, cute clothes, school+work, social festivities with family and friends galore. but....theres always those days.

but baby, don't you know that those things are the very things that makes us worry about what tomorrow would look like or not look like. the fragile ways in which we live. the missteps that beckons us and those around us.

that light...too bright. that mirror...too clear. and with time, like any gorgeous piece of jewelry, that glisten will fade and another begging to be the one to replace it all too cleanly. as if the prior never was.

your gentle words beg me to reconsider. a beacon in the storm...faintly it shines its way through but its too cold from here. from the lone post i occupy-- life is too short to live like this. but i wouldnt know how else to. its not so unbelievable. its just hard to believe that there's any other way. its all like a distant star I cant hold.

I can't take you close to where I am. that fact will send you farther than anywhere anyone has ever been. I'm not where I belong.

your words...let them please carry me to you. love, I get so lost sometimes. I drive myself away.




There is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these lovable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else; they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else.
— Chuck Klosterman, Killing Yourself To Live

Monday, December 14, 2009

everything will be okay























There's nothing left to say
Don't waste another day
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If it's alright with you then it's alright with me
Baby let's take this time let's make new memories

Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Let's bring it back
Let's bring it back

After my last final tomorrow at 1 pm (eck!) I'll be off to NorCal for two weeks visiting friends and family for the holidays. Be back in time for NYE in SoCal!!

Until then, think of all the times we've shared in the past year
...let's take this time and make new memories :D


Friday, December 11, 2009

hmm







speechless. really...this was aired within the last few years...I guess I need to get that pinkish white glow or else I'm effed. Who green-light these things??!!!

interlineations

"Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream"
"The one that makes me laugh"
And I threw my arms around his neck
"Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you"

Spinning on that dizzy edge
He kissed my face and kissed my head
And he dreamed of all the different ways he knew
To make me glow

"Why are you so far away?"
"Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
That I'm in love with you"



when you look back on the of the best days of your life
...who will you see in them?

<3


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Wednesday, December 9, 2009

i'm not suppose to be doing this...

because im suppose to be studying for my last final. but i'm tempted. and i usually can never fight against that feeliing. especially when its regarding an exam on the horizon.

anyhow. I'm one of those girls who loves to dig. if curiosity ever killed a cat, I'm pretty sure I'd be the first to get through my nine lives and then some. so i always ask TG questions pretty randomly...needless to say some are inappropriate if you know me... then I always follow up those up with more questions until he gets that look on his face like "why do girls have to ask so many questions? why cant you just be?" but I get a few answers in before I see that...

so he says he misses me. so i ask him...you know, because I HAVE to ask him "what do you miss?" (i think i said i miss you too...im sure i did...well at least he should know...anyways)... and he's like ummmmmmmm....*speaks on other topics to try to deter me from asking a million of these questions in a day...so I entertain him and talk about plans, studying, friends and home. then i ask..."are you going to answer me?"...(lol) and he's says "i miss laughing with you."

I was taken back by the sincerity of his answer. Because isn't that one of the greatest things when you're with someone--boyfriend, girlfriend, best friend, sister, brother?

its that moment where you burst out laughing, smiles uncontrolled and wiped of all worry of how you'd look to the passing observer? the uproar of laughter that sounds like happiness sparkling its tangible tingle? the shared common humor that relieves everything else as secondary. its that momentary vacation in the midst of a whirlwind of everyday moments.

happiness, evidenced.

on another note...i'm obsessed with alaskan malamute and siberian husky puppies. le sigh.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

classy and fabulous

"But then, shall I never get any older than I am now? That'll be a comfort, one way -- never to be an old woman -- but then -- always to have lessons to learn!" -AIW

happy birthday to one of the most fashionable, fun-loving and thoughtful girls ever! you always make every day a celebration for those around you and I hope that today-- you are reminded of how much YOU are a gift to all of us!


Fav memory: sending/creating those dirty acronyms for torts!!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

tribute

hot. pretty. cute. to be all three would be awesome, no?

although there's plenty of girls who embrace each of those categories--shes hot, shes cute...you get the jest-- im so wowed when someone can captivate all three. it makes them not as hot, or not as pretty, or not as cute as any of those other "just" hot/pretty/cute girls but it really possesses a charm in and of itself.

(megan fox=hot, pretty maybe but not cute. umm penelope cruz=pretty, maybe hot but not cute, etc etc)

example?



1. Miranda Kerr




2. Rio Matsumoto



3. Charlize Theron



4. Rachel McAdams



5. Hayden Panettiere


boy division



1. Jude Law

that's all. haha i thought of jude law and then i couldn't think of anyone else.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

18 out of 25

writing writing writing to meet my 6 pm deadline. a deadline i made up for myself because i missed the first one (or two).

by 6 pm tmrw i'll be half done with finals for this semester.

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i had a random thought today; well one among thousands but this one stood out:
i wonder what i'm like to you...when you think of me...

that's all.