cycles

there are some weeks where you're totally on top of the world...everything is in tune and in sync...but you can feel that it might end. it might break if you're not careful. and the desperation to hold on to that high is so intense that you know you're going to squeeze all the air thats necessary to maintain it.

then you do. then the following weeks/days become the stark reality against which you slip into that despair of tasting the sweetness and having lost it. but you saw it coming, you knew it had to be and you can just sit and wait for the conditions to cycle you back to that spot again.

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anyhow-- spent this weekend studying, working out, watching daybreakers which i think i love but only everything before the ending and then drinking myself to submission with bear at yardhouse. dont ever do that when youre emotionally unstable over school/career stuff. not a pretty scene. then had a leisurely sunday getting conned by "lost tapes" on the animal planet which almost brought me to tears and proves in 3 hours to be the most addictive show...to be disappointed that the "real lost tapes and footage" was not at all that--real. wtf. bummer to the tenth degree. spent the rest of the day strolling around farmers market and then ended the day with lounging, pillow talk and the wedding planner/failure to launch.

today, had class all day, complete with a boba run, happy hour, paranormal activity movie night and JERSEY SHORE. haha soooo addicting-- like watching a car accident-- just. cant. look. away. must learn how to duck.

this is us.