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on a mission

“We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love.”
--Tom Robbins

I think I'm going a little Valentine's crazy. Haha...don't tell me its a Hallmark holiday, and don't tell me that its a day meant for something you should do everyday...what's life if you can't just go a little love-crazed for one day in the year?

promise

I promise to be nice to you from now on. I'm sorry.

always

"Set The Fire To The Third Bar"
(feat. Martha Wainwright)

I find the map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from 'A' to where you'd be
It's only finger-lengths that I see
I touch the place where I'd find your face
My finger in creases of distant dark places

I hang my coat up in the first bar
There is no peace that I've found so far
The laughter penetrates my silence
As drunken men find flaws in science

Their words mostly noises
Ghosts with just voices
Your words in my memory
Are like music to me

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

After I have travelled so far
We'd set the fire to the third bar
We'd share each other like an island
Until exhausted, close our eyelids
And dreaming, pick up from
The last place we left off
Your soft skin is weeping
A joy you can't keep in

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
And I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
and I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms



im so tired of always missing you. its draining, its tiring to always want but never have you here. it dont know how to explain it to you... its been like this since Ive met you and it wont let up. I dont know if it ever will and it kills, it crazes me to my core.

January 17

...promise me you'll always remember: you're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. -Christopher Robin to Pooh

there's few people I've met in my life thus far that have truly impressed me...especially those who after spending a lot of time with that I can still characterize as so. There are, of course, those who are smart, or fun, or funny, or interesting, or pretty, or anything else in the world worth admiring. But about 3 years ago, I met someone who truly was all these things all at the same time-- and yet was still so human. Its that humanness that makes me appreciate her even more.

In her weakest moments, she still impresses me with her resilience, her unwavering determination to love and love hard and not let anyone or anything change that about her. I like that, I respect that...to hope and give against all odds. The fact that she's smart without an inch of haughtiness --but rather-- really cares for the success of those around her. She would be patient just so she can help you share in the same experience. She's fun and funny without having to change herself to affect those around her. She embraces everything that interests her and well, made it definitely cool to be nerdy or different.

she listens when I whine, when I complain...even when she cant really listen to the same conversation for the 80th time, she is patient. At times, she makes me feel like the little things I enjoy aren't weird or my struggles arent so abnormal because she has this innate ability to understand despite when everyone else cant.

I love to let people know I think about them-- when I see something, experience them, when I miss them-- I tell them, show them-- I haven't met many people who does that-- who will stop in their tracks and simply say "hey, I thought of you"...and she does it. She brings mementos, she appreciates the interconnectivity of people's conversations with her, their interests and makes them feel at home in their own skin.

our disagreement regarding werewolves and vampires doesnt divide us, it brings us closer. And I'm really going to throw this out there...if I had a chance with my dream man...I'd introduce Jude to her. Man, that's a lot of love I have for this girl.

In a time when madness, insaneness, and stress ruled, she made it a better place by just being so. utterly. herself. Thank you for all the laughs, tears, conversations, ridiculousness and above all, for being in my life.

I hope you already knew all this, my sci-fri british fiend. And in case you didn't-- now you know.

happy birthday-- i wish you an amazing year. you are loved and this one's for you.

believe it.

You may not be his first, his last, or his only. He loved before, he may love again. But if he loves you now, what else matters? He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.
-Bob Marley

…time can be a greedy thing - sometimes it steals all the details for itself.
-the kite runner

how he would agree

(everyday) HER TO HIM: “I hate it when you act as if I mean nothing to you!” *stomps her feet*

HIM TO HER: “And I hate it when you think you mean nothing to me when in fact you’re my everything!" *pouts*